End of the story...

I spent a lot of hours in the last months trying to find out what it is that everyone wants to see, diving into areas I have never touched before, going all-in to find stuff to rocket up numbers. What I forgot: I was never about numbers, but the Twitch Affiliate changed me. I reached the goal of 50 followers last year and expected to grow and grow although the target was always "make people happy that are here, no matter if 1 or 2000". I lost that target out of sight. After every stream, I check analytics, sort and analyze the data to find out how to potentially increase amount of followers, engagement and in the end income as well. Numbers that make me happy when they are rising, numbers that aren't in the scope of the channel's initial motto, numbers that break me when not coming out as expected.

Throughout the more than 5 years I always tried to enhance quality and adjust content and involvement. Quality with trying to always have the best visual quality, always top-of-the-notch overlays and adjusting streaming times as good as possible for the fans. Trying to skyrocket involvement with stuff like huge tournaments and open project like Ark or Rust. In the end, I used a lot of time and money to make TMS-Gaming bigger in numbers, numbers which were never in the scope of the motto. In the end, it is quite natural to try and climb the rankings, but it is not natural to invest that amount of effort for barely anything to happen. This should be no offense to people not watching because they never joined for that content in the first place. It's not just failing expectations, but about the creation of the expectations which result in a lot of disappointments in already busy enough times that I even make busier for myself.